Ok I'll start this monday morning with sharing something what happened last week.
I finally manage to attend an assembly sa SFC. I saw him finally at siyempre kinapa ko ang sarili ko kung ok na ako. Nung una siyempre hindi ko sya matingnan. Para akong pasyente na naoperahan sa mata. Ayoko idilat ang mata ko dahil natatakot ako sa malalaman ko. Kung tagumpay ba ang operasyon o hindi. I'm so afraid, na baka ganun pa rin ang pakiramdam ko sa kanya. I'm afraid I would realize I have never moved on...na bulag pa rin ako.
The grace of God helped me that night. He guided me. Nakita ko na sya by then. Pero di ko pa rin sya nilapitan. He seem not to change after months of not seeing him. Childish pa rin ang brod, ex-prospect ko. :)
Hindi ko rin alam pero di ko na rin siya nilapitan. Pero I planned to. Wala na naman kaso kung sino ang mauna. If I will be returning back to SFC, kailangan kong maayos ang relationship ko sa kanya. After all we're brother and sisters in Christ. We became close friends even before pa na magkaroon ako ng special feelings for him. I miss him - aamin na ako. But hep! I realized one thing that night.
That I can never go back. I have given him the chance. Finish line na talaga yun sa amin. If ever na babalik man ang friendship namin, I will be happy to accept it and never looked back sa past. Regalo ko na lang yun sa kanya. I treasured friends as my jewels. I never had a true special someone who cares for me so my full attention was reserved for the people who genuinely trust, love and care for me. :)
I can therefore say....I've moved on. He will always be special pa rin naman. Wala pa naman pinapana si mr. cupid para may makita akong iba. But I have truly forgiven him and myself.
Masarap sa pakiramdam. Now I can truly say I'm ready to go back and serve God again.
Thank you Lord for understanding and for approving my Leave of Absence sa SFC. I know You missed me and miss You too my King. :) I'm ready to rock and roll again! Yiheaaa! :P
*This time you can be sure....* :) :) :)
I finally manage to attend an assembly sa SFC. I saw him finally at siyempre kinapa ko ang sarili ko kung ok na ako. Nung una siyempre hindi ko sya matingnan. Para akong pasyente na naoperahan sa mata. Ayoko idilat ang mata ko dahil natatakot ako sa malalaman ko. Kung tagumpay ba ang operasyon o hindi. I'm so afraid, na baka ganun pa rin ang pakiramdam ko sa kanya. I'm afraid I would realize I have never moved on...na bulag pa rin ako.
The grace of God helped me that night. He guided me. Nakita ko na sya by then. Pero di ko pa rin sya nilapitan. He seem not to change after months of not seeing him. Childish pa rin ang brod, ex-prospect ko. :)
Hindi ko rin alam pero di ko na rin siya nilapitan. Pero I planned to. Wala na naman kaso kung sino ang mauna. If I will be returning back to SFC, kailangan kong maayos ang relationship ko sa kanya. After all we're brother and sisters in Christ. We became close friends even before pa na magkaroon ako ng special feelings for him. I miss him - aamin na ako. But hep! I realized one thing that night.
That I can never go back. I have given him the chance. Finish line na talaga yun sa amin. If ever na babalik man ang friendship namin, I will be happy to accept it and never looked back sa past. Regalo ko na lang yun sa kanya. I treasured friends as my jewels. I never had a true special someone who cares for me so my full attention was reserved for the people who genuinely trust, love and care for me. :)
I can therefore say....I've moved on. He will always be special pa rin naman. Wala pa naman pinapana si mr. cupid para may makita akong iba. But I have truly forgiven him and myself.
Masarap sa pakiramdam. Now I can truly say I'm ready to go back and serve God again.
Thank you Lord for understanding and for approving my Leave of Absence sa SFC. I know You missed me and miss You too my King. :) I'm ready to rock and roll again! Yiheaaa! :P
*This time you can be sure....* :) :) :)
Comments