Kangel's Confessions

Location: Bed Room, Taguig Time:Around 4am :)  nalaman ko tonight ay this morning pala na hindi pala ako ang may pinakamabigat na problema.  day by day, minamahal ko ang members ng isang company na kung saan parte din ako. patuloy silang tumtanggap ng rejection, pero patuloy silang nagiging strong sa kabila nun. sila ang totoong matatapang na tao. dahil sa kabila ng mga obstacles na kinakaharap nila, patuloy nilang PINIPILING maging matatag kaysa maging talunan. naniniwala ako na walang desisyon ang Diyos na mali. Tao lang ang gumagawa  ng mga desisyong ito. And men suffer the results of the consequences. pero naniniwala din ako na kahit ano pa mang mali ng desisyon mong ito... gagawa ng paraan ang Diyos para maging tama ito. Dahil. wala syang  pababayaan sa knyang mga anak.  He want us to overcome.  He want us to win. But we first to decide to overcome and to win....Ito yung nakakalimutan natin gawin. Kadalasan. Napakarami na po ang nangyari sa buh...

I've been thinking a lot. And I would be pouring out some of them tonight. This time...ipo-post ko na. Gee :D I was in Zambales with Marketing peeps. Originally team building ito ng Marketing Design. Honored ako, I was invited. I enjoyed. Na-relax ako. After all, I need a break from stress. :) Many thanks to Marketing :) But that never stopped me of thinking of my events in the past. Sa totoo lang, ayoko na talaga isipin. I'm not sure why I am keep revisiting these stories of happiness, heartbreaks and realizations. I don't know if I really want to share these. After all, it's not a happy ending. Pero heto na lang.... - Gusto ko sabihin na it is really not fair. (I know....right?) Gusto ko magalit pero di ko magawa. I just understand. I wanna shout to the world na he should not treat me that way. It is just not fair. It breaks my heart until now. Siguro yun ang totoo. Basta na lang sya nawala, Naiwan ako. Sinong hanging? Sinong tao ang hindi alam kung ano ang tamang da...

Here's one of my favorites that I would like to share with you guys. The very lyrics are the words that I would love to sing to the love of my life in the future. Hindi ko man siya kilala today. Hehe. Tara, let's fall in love with the lyrics Darating na lang yan. Unexpectedly. :) I Never Knew Love by Lovi Poe. I open my eyes, only to see Just how sad this world could be That I often cry alone… ohh I look at the sky, longing to see There’s a chance out there for me For my heart to be set free [refrain] My friends had say that it’s ok When rainbow’s fade in clouds of gray But in my heart I know someday True happiness will come my way [chorus] I never knew love till I found you I’s magic in your smile Never knew love till I saw you lookin’ in my eyes And suddenly our sadness disappears True love has fin’lly shown its smilin’ eyes on me I’m searching the skies hopin’ to see If there’s someone out there for me Who will set my poor heart free [repeat refrain] [repeat chorus] No one...

Nagkita kami ng mga kaibigan ko sa SYKES last March 31, 2010. Gabi. Siyempre after work. Nagkita muna kami ni Emie muna sa megamall tapos naghintay ng taxi sa Podium dahil sa scarcity ng taxi that night. Nakipag-unahan pa kami nun sa isang kasabay namin na guy na naghihintay din ng taxi. Hehe. Buti gentleman. Pinauna na lang kami. Ang sikreto di namin sya nilingon. Hehe. Maraming salamat sa iyo Mr. Stranger. Nakasakay kami at nakaabot sa K-Pointe bldg sa Gilmore ng safe and sound. Finally after few minutes of waiting, I texted Ate Mye. At habang nagre-review kami ng mga SYKES unforgettable moments, lumabas na sina Makre at siyempre si Ate Mye. With a new face friend nila. I met a new friend. Benj, beautiful like us...you know. lol. At last nakumpleto din ang grupo. We ate sa teriyaki boy c/o ate mye wohooo! Siya ang aming birthday celebrant for the night. Beautiful beautiful. We have kuwento at siyempre mawalawa ba ang kape? Starbucks!!! I love life...well.. I super love coffee lang ...

"Maybe you're just scared, because for once in your life someone actually wants to be with you." - From the movie A Walk to Remember love is always patient and kind; it is never jealous. love is never boastful or conceited; it is never rude or selfish, it does not take offense, and is not resentful. love takes no pleasure in other people’s sins, but delights in the truth. it is always ready to excuse to trust, to hope and to endure whatever comes. Wala naaa. Nakakaiyak na talaga ito. Love is so simply ideally indulging because of these words from the Bible. This is love as the Lord describes it to be. It's our decision to believe even though the world fails to manifest it... OK.NAKAKARELATE.AKO. Fine! hahaha. :) I wish there is such kind of love...I wish...

Just had chismaks with girlfriend Rom last night. Some points were given light to me once again. 1. That we really have a freedom to choose - On choosing the life we want. But do you know what's amazing? Even if we keep on choosing the bad ones, God will turn or make that choice into good. Kahit anu pa yan. Kahit noon pa yan nangyari. Wala lang. ganun lang talaga tayo ka-love ni Lord. :) It is just so sad to hurt God sometimes on choosing the other way around. 2. God knows his sheep. When we get lost and scream to the world how hurt we are, God knows our pain and He lifts us up. He knows exactly who we are because of our hearts. He knows what's in it, whose in it and what garbage we kept inside. 3. Forgiveness is a decision. The moment we decide to forgive, everything - our mind, heart follows. Forgiveness gives you freedom and inner peace. 4. Love will come in the most unexpected way - mysteriously you can never imagined. It may destroy you, build you, and it may be the best...

Ok I'll start this monday morning with sharing something what happened last week. I finally manage to attend an assembly sa SFC. I saw him finally at siyempre kinapa ko ang sarili ko kung ok na ako. Nung una siyempre hindi ko sya matingnan. Para akong pasyente na naoperahan sa mata. Ayoko idilat ang mata ko dahil natatakot ako sa malalaman ko. Kung tagumpay ba ang operasyon o hindi. I'm so afraid, na baka ganun pa rin ang pakiramdam ko sa kanya. I'm afraid I would realize I have never moved on...na bulag pa rin ako. The grace of God helped me that night. He guided me. Nakita ko na sya by then. Pero di ko pa rin sya nilapitan. He seem not to change after months of not seeing him. Childish pa rin ang brod, ex-prospect ko. :) Hindi ko rin alam pero di ko na rin siya nilapitan. Pero I planned to. Wala na naman kaso kung sino ang mauna. If I will be returning back to SFC, kailangan kong maayos ang relationship ko sa kanya. After all we're brother and sisters in Christ. We be...