Kangel's Confessions

Saturday. For this month lector ako for the 6am mass. Well this is my last for this month. Wala ako sa huwisyo na uma-attend. Pero makailang beses ako ginising ng alarm ko sa phone at sa BB. Natulog ako. Parang yung katawan ko sinasabi matulog pa ako. Pero nung nag-alarm na. Alam ko kailangan ko ng bumangon. I can't miss the mass. Ang mass ay isang heavenly banquet...isang celebration na isa kami sa pangunahing sponsors. Lector kami so hindi kami pwede mawala. Para na rin nakamiss ka ng paanyaya ng presidente ng US o kaya paanyaya ng isang sikat na Celine Dion sa concert na kumanta sa concert nya. Sa mass, naimbitahan lang naman kami magsalita ng salita ng Diyos....well ng isang Hari lang naman. Si Lord. Di ba. Diyos yun. Hehe. Well, imagine the honor and privilege that we are given. Kaya di talaga pwede umabsent. Unless otherwise may rason siyempre. Ayun, hindi yun ang kuwento. Something happened to me nung umaga. Normal ang mass. As usual. The gospel has message to tell. Well h

Here's one of my favorites that I would like to share with you guys. The very lyrics are the words that I would love to sing to the love of my life in the future. Hindi ko man siya kilala today. Hehe. Tara, let's fall in love with the lyrics Darating na lang yan. Unexpectedly. :) I Never Knew Love by Lovi Poe. I open my eyes, only to see Just how sad this world could be That I often cry alone… ohh I look at the sky, longing to see There’s a chance out there for me For my heart to be set free [refrain] My friends had say that it’s ok When rainbow’s fade in clouds of gray But in my heart I know someday True happiness will come my way [chorus] I never knew love till I found you I’s magic in your smile Never knew love till I saw you lookin’ in my eyes And suddenly our sadness disappears True love has fin’lly shown its smilin’ eyes on me I’m searching the skies hopin’ to see If there’s someone out there for me Who will set my poor heart free [repeat refrain] [repeat chorus] No one

Less talk... less mistake. Pero gustung gusto ko ng magsalita. Pramis. Pero alam mo yun....Hind ko kaya. Lalo na area-ang ito ng buhay ko. Kahit na gustuhin ko mangyari ang isang bagay. Pero kung alam ko naman na hindi ito siguradong mangyayari, wala akong magagawa. Hanggat wala akong security. Hindi ko ito ma-claim ng bonggang bongga. Inaatake yata akong panghihina ng loob. Gusto ko ng sumuko minsan. Napapagod ako. Noon pa. But I know there is something in me that keeps me going. It is my faith . Dahil alam ko ang Diyos ko at message ng love nya ay iba ang sinasabi. Na dapat maging hopeful ako. Na dapat maging stronger ako. Na dapat maniwala ako. Na dapat maging focus ako sa goal. Na dapat hindi ako mawawalan ng love sa mga taong nakapaligid sa akin. Na dapat mainlove ako ng paulit ulit. Na dapat mai-share ko ang faith ko sa iba. Na dapat hindi mawala ang ngiti ko. Na dapat magtiwala lang ako. The Lord keeps pouring his grace on me. Alam nyo ba kung bakit ako single pa hanggang ngayo

I am so troubled right now. Restless. Stressed. Stressed with so many things in this world. Threat. Worries. Responsibilities. Uncertainties and Sin. Sobrang bigat ng pakiramdam ko. A lot of thoughts have been running on my head back and forth. Naramdaman ko ang pagod. I just want someone who will tell everything will be alright. That I dont need to think and be so serious about it. I want my comfort food, my favorite coffee on my table right now. Pero pagud na pagod pa rin ako. Nalulungkot ako pero I'm keeping the fight still. A friend told me na kaya ko ito...with the grace of the Lord. Pero dumarating lang talaga sa dulo na hindi ko na kaya. Iri-raise ko muna ang white flag. Pero alam nyo ba what God made me realized today? That I can fight all these things that seem to running as "giants" in my life. And then I read a passage from 1 Samuel 17:33-50. How David shows his trust to our living God. "The LORD who delivered me from the paw of the lion and the paw of th

I have a lot to say. But I can't say it. And decide not to rant it out or share it out to the world. For the first time, I managed to just share it to just the closest friends. They know what my mind and heart's struggles are and how I did fight with my immature plans and impulsive thoughts. Haay. Haay. Haay. Tungkol saan ba ito? Haha. Secret muna. I can't decide kung hanggang kailan ako ganito. Pero promise magkukuwento din ako. :) Latest updates kay kangel. - Double blessings. - SFC service and Lector Schedule sa St Anne. - Matagal akong namahinga sa SFC. Well dahil sa heart issues. (take that figuratively) But I'm ok now. Matagal na. :) Excited na akong maging active again. :) And dun naman sa lector service ko sa aming pinakamamahal na parokya ng St Anne eh kinapalan ko na lang mukha ko at uma-attend na akong meeting. :) So there I have it... a SCHEDULE!! haha. I love being part of the mass celebration. It is really an honor to be used by God as a proclaimer of