Actually I am not inspired to write. But everything happens for a reason so I clicked and read on my blogpost again and check some articles I wrote. See people's comments on it. And I smiled when I learn that they learn on what I have shared.
Pero ngayon naghahanap naman ako ng inspirasyon. Tingin ko naubos na ang inspirasyon ko. I've been stalled with my current state. What's been happening to me lately?
Jotting it down some things on my head. See my list. (These are the things I am missing out and I am planning to make up)
1. SFC - Been inactive in SFC. For a long time now. I miss my sisses in Sunvalley. I miss the fellowship, late night meetings and just that amazingly spiritual feeling when I'm in with my SFC Sunvalley family. I miss our music ministry. I miss praising together with the people I know would stay the way I know them for the rest of my life. I miss being with a bunch of people who I know would understand my faith. I felt I stopped growing. It is just so hard to grow when you're alone. Growing spiritually I mean.
2. Feast - Alam ko may utang ako dito kay Ate Rhena. At alam ko matagal ko na rin utang ito Lord. Haay. I promise. I'll find time to attend next next week. :)
3. Quiet time - Failing it everyday. And I'm sad because I do always slept late but never had a chance to fulfill just a 15 mins alone with God. :( I know I need to make it up. Like now. Right?
I know I need to clean up and do some fixing. Because right now...I feel like it is all mess. Para lang akong nasanay. No one is being accountable to check or to remind me. I know this is wrong and stuff. But sad I did it. Yung mga ganun. I'm not happy with what I'm going and yes I know I need get back on track soon.
I always believe na it's never too late to go back. To do what is right, repent and change for the better. Sabi nga ni Father Ben sa homily nya last Sunday, the Lord knows you are not perfect, but it your effort to change that counts. After all, alam nya ang laman ng heart natin. Yun naman ang di natin madadaya. So make an effort to change. He will appreciate. Kahit pakonti-konti. Try harder. Not just try. And make sure to learn the gist of it. Store the lesson in your heart. If you let you heart follow it, your mind and body will follow next.
"...for it is written: "Be holy, because I am holy." - 1 Peter 1:16
For now...I know I must seek help. And I know also na hindi ko ito kaya mag-isa. I need prayers and to be with people who'll help.
Lord, please send these people to me.
So help me God... :)
Pero ngayon naghahanap naman ako ng inspirasyon. Tingin ko naubos na ang inspirasyon ko. I've been stalled with my current state. What's been happening to me lately?
Jotting it down some things on my head. See my list. (These are the things I am missing out and I am planning to make up)
1. SFC - Been inactive in SFC. For a long time now. I miss my sisses in Sunvalley. I miss the fellowship, late night meetings and just that amazingly spiritual feeling when I'm in with my SFC Sunvalley family. I miss our music ministry. I miss praising together with the people I know would stay the way I know them for the rest of my life. I miss being with a bunch of people who I know would understand my faith. I felt I stopped growing. It is just so hard to grow when you're alone. Growing spiritually I mean.
2. Feast - Alam ko may utang ako dito kay Ate Rhena. At alam ko matagal ko na rin utang ito Lord. Haay. I promise. I'll find time to attend next next week. :)
3. Quiet time - Failing it everyday. And I'm sad because I do always slept late but never had a chance to fulfill just a 15 mins alone with God. :( I know I need to make it up. Like now. Right?
I know I need to clean up and do some fixing. Because right now...I feel like it is all mess. Para lang akong nasanay. No one is being accountable to check or to remind me. I know this is wrong and stuff. But sad I did it. Yung mga ganun. I'm not happy with what I'm going and yes I know I need get back on track soon.
I always believe na it's never too late to go back. To do what is right, repent and change for the better. Sabi nga ni Father Ben sa homily nya last Sunday, the Lord knows you are not perfect, but it your effort to change that counts. After all, alam nya ang laman ng heart natin. Yun naman ang di natin madadaya. So make an effort to change. He will appreciate. Kahit pakonti-konti. Try harder. Not just try. And make sure to learn the gist of it. Store the lesson in your heart. If you let you heart follow it, your mind and body will follow next.
"...for it is written: "Be holy, because I am holy." - 1 Peter 1:16
For now...I know I must seek help. And I know also na hindi ko ito kaya mag-isa. I need prayers and to be with people who'll help.
Lord, please send these people to me.
So help me God... :)
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