Kangel's Confessions

Do you trust me? What do you do when you are ask the make or break question? How do you answer in such a way your words will be listened to and you will convey the right message?

When is the right time? There is just this one guy who makes me happy everyday. He makes my heart beat faster. He makes me feel really special even he intends not to. I wanted to express what I feel but I'm afraid it may not be the right time. God only knows when... New Chapter: The Japanese  I wondered...why am I always affiliated to "japan" word. I was never a super fan of any anime. Oh there is one...Sailormoon series. Naruto? so so. Ah Yugi-oh! :D Gladly, I started and ended only these two series. And in between I met some japanese folks - some of them are acquaintance  and wives of friends. One of my friend dreams to flew in Japan. Another one is a collector of manga characters. Friends and college friends work there. Now surprised! I was hired by Aeon  as Managing Software Consultant for a project - a japanese company. Never thought of it. But my subconscious mind has been absorbing too much information about Japan and japanese culture. Now my turn ...

focus. driven. motivated. goal oriented. focus driven. motivated. goal oriented. focus driven. motivated. goal oriented.focus. driven. motivated. goal oriented. focus driven. motivated. goal oriented. focus. driven. motivated. goal oriented. focus focus focus. don't feel. no emotion. every time i feel that again. i just remind myself of why am i here. the only way to be successful is to focus. LASER FOCUS!!! :)

Location: Rizal Medical Center habang sinusulat ko ang entry na ito, nakaupo ako at hinihintay ang pamangkin ko, mama at pinsan ko ( siya yung nanay)  Sinugod namin sya kasama ng nanay ko at nanay niya dahil sa matindi nyang pagsusuka. Sabi nila nausog daw...pero sa dami ng laway na natanggap nya wala pa rin makapagpagaling sa kanya. Kaya heto kinailangan na ng professional help para mas malaman kung ano ba tlaga ang sakit nya. naghahanap ako ng mauupuan at nakita ko ang bakanteng upuan kung saan andun ang mag-asawa. Habang sumesenyas ako na at nagpapalaam na kung pwede bang umupo...nakita ako ng asawang lalaki at pinagsabihan ako....na "mag-ingat ka baka masagi mo ang sugat sa paa ng asawa ko". Ang sungit no? Pero  imbes na mainis ako at magalit ako... odd thing is...napangiti pa ako. :) The Break up - Reason I  once had a relationship that it fails because somebody failed to take care of me and to protect me.  Nakakalungkot na rason yun no. Well,  we all...

Today, I felt God is sending me angels...saying...everythinge will be alright. Thank you Lance,Nika,Martin and Emma. Your mere presence conveys God's message. :) Good night.

Meron kayang tao na katulad ko? (Malamang marami din. Haha.) Na mahilig mag-imagine ng happy endings? Kahit na siguro tinatawag ng sitwasyon o trabaho na magbago ako, hindi pa rin naman nawawala ang old self ko. Turn off lang ginagawa ko madalas. Pero at the end of the day, im still on my old self. Sino ba si Karen?  Masayahin ako. Joker mas madalas, maraming kuwento.  Marunong ako makinig, magtaray at manlait din ng bongga-na may humor. Stress madalas. Pero tumawa lang ako, ok na ako. Nangangarap ako na may prince charming ako one day that will save me from being alone for a long time. And yes i was never really in a relationship for a long period of time. By the way i've been dreaming of that day too. I interpret songs and i love songs which i can relate my life and love story (especially my love story) I cry a lot at kahit saan lugar yata- sa dyip, sa bahay - while praying, while thinking of pains, hurts and depression. I cry a lot because it is free and it i...

Location: Bed Room, Taguig Time:Around 4am :)  nalaman ko tonight ay this morning pala na hindi pala ako ang may pinakamabigat na problema.  day by day, minamahal ko ang members ng isang company na kung saan parte din ako. patuloy silang tumtanggap ng rejection, pero patuloy silang nagiging strong sa kabila nun. sila ang totoong matatapang na tao. dahil sa kabila ng mga obstacles na kinakaharap nila, patuloy nilang PINIPILING maging matatag kaysa maging talunan. naniniwala ako na walang desisyon ang Diyos na mali. Tao lang ang gumagawa  ng mga desisyong ito. And men suffer the results of the consequences. pero naniniwala din ako na kahit ano pa mang mali ng desisyon mong ito... gagawa ng paraan ang Diyos para maging tama ito. Dahil. wala syang  pababayaan sa knyang mga anak.  He want us to overcome.  He want us to win. But we first to decide to overcome and to win....Ito yung nakakalimutan natin gawin. Kadalasan. Napakarami na po ang nangyari sa buh...

I've been experiencing the highest and lowest moods lately. Hindi ko alam kung nagi-enter na ba ako ng midlife crisis? Ito na ba yun? I never know if I had passed one. But maybe I guess not. I just maybe a lost soul. :) My thoughts...they are screaming. Mind you guys, ok naman ako. Haha. But I just cant help thinking, of some thoughts lately about - happiness - contentment and what you really want in life. Ayoko mag-elaborate. Para sa akin na lang siguro iyun. But I feel weird kasi bakit ngayon ko ito naiisip. Ito na ba yung tinatawag nilang midlife crisis? Naaah. I miss... I miss yung mga dati kong ginagawa nun early twenties ko. I know what I really want back then. What makes me truly happy. Yun mafeel mo na ilang beses at halos sagad sa buto na ang ginagawa mo eh di ka makaramdam ng pagod. Ang mararamdaman mo lang eh saya. Yung eternal happiness. Siguro pwedeng matranslate ang eternal sa happiness with peace of heart and mind. Ganun. Basta ung happiness na kakaiba. Parang kasi a...

Hello?! Kamusta naman? First post of the year 2012. Eh malay ko ba kung 2012 na nga ang katapusan ng mundo di ba? Eh hala babalik ako sa kangels confessions ko no. Namiss ko bigla magblog. SOBRA. Eh kung namiss ko, bakit wala akong post? Haha! Yun lang. I'm reading my past months post and I realized, I became so negative about people. Actually ayoko yun ganun pakiramdam. Ayoko rin ng nega na post no. That is why...I stop posting. Gusto kong huminga. Mangolekta ulit ng inspirasyon. Count the blessings. I believe that I should collect nice and warm thoughts and drop off bad ones. Dont worry parang kanila ko lang napagdesisyunan yun. Hahaha Kidding aside...I want to be more positive about people. Kaya heto na.....sisimulan ko ito 1st post ko for 2012 with a....... "Bang!" Kamusta na si Kangel? Dumating ang Pasko, bagong taon at nagbirthday po ang inyong abang lingkod eh masasabi kong ok naman ako. Good news and bad news came. Pero mas marami pa rin ang blessings na dumadati...