Kangel's Confessions

Merry Christmas sa atin lahat! This is a late post...At habang hinihintay kong maluto ang anumang pagkain na niluluto ni mama....Magba-blog muna ako. Kamusta Christmas? MASAYA. Hehe.. Kasi kumpleto kami. Siyempre kanta ever ang lahat. Kaso tulog ang mga magulang ko at mga kapatid ko nung noche buena. Siguro dahil sa sobrang pagod. Kinabukasan... Siyempre gift giving...Hayun...nalagasan talaga ako...Kung meron pang malalagas sa akin. Ewan ko ba? Hahaha! Lagas na lagas na ako di pa man nag-start ang christmas. Pero happy ako...at super satisfied. Hearing them say thank you and merry christmas sa akin...parang sapat na tlagang kabayaran. Knowing na na-acknowledge nila yun...makes me feel...I am more blessed. Oh di ba? Yun lahat ang nangyari nung Dec 24-25. Ano naman nangyari bago yun? Siyempre dami parties: 1. Party sa SEER - Wala akong masabi...ang babait ng mga boys namin...I salute yung mga boys na namin na naging super game sa pagsusuot ng wigs. Sana lahat ng tao next year mag-parti...

Dami nangyari last night. Kapagod. Pero masaya. I met Arcy Buenaventura last night sa Shang. Arcy is very close friend of mind and he is my...uhmmmn....hahha! Never mind...haha! You know what I mean frend...haha! Super close ko itong taong ito. We chismis a lot nung college about life at kahit ano. I remembered na sini-share nya ung kanyang Kool-Aid juice drink every time sa mga review sessions namin pag exam week. Kasama na rin dyan ang hindi ko malilimutan very fresh chocolate mik drink hunting namin sa VETMED campus. Nilalakad namin yun kahabaan ng VETMED campus...kahit sobrang init...haha! Sobrang mura at sarap kasi naman nun. Onli in YUFIELVI...hahaha! We had coffee plus pastries. Kain lang habang kuwento. He never changed at all pala. Mas ok sya kaysa yung last time na nagkita kami. Last year pa yata yun. Ngayon kamuka nya na si Clark Kent. Hehehe! (Naks Superman!) He rant about his work. Hahaha! And that Mr....Ahem! Hahahaha! Oh well, I shared my views. The reality kasi dito sa...

So hello there....hehe... wala naman. Pero since petiks dito sa office. Heto blog ako ulit. :) What happened? Heto na...Heto yun... Happy birthday best! Kaarawan po ng isa sa mga matatalik kong kaibigan sa industriya...(hanu vah at showbiz ba ito? haha!) este...sa earth. Maligayang birthday Angelo! Last night was his pre-celebration of his birthday which was supposed to be today. Masaya naman. Oo masaya talaga. May videoke, lahat ata ng ka-cliques nya pumunta dun mula sa katrabaho, kabarkada, his girlfriend and fairy and siyempre andun po ang inyong lingkod. Pero tinatamad talaga ako nung una.. Pramis! Haay...pinilit ko lang talaga pumunta. Pampakunsensya ba. Para sa susunod maalala naman ng lokong yun ang birthday ko..haha! Andun rin pala ang family nya na syang pasimuno na bumabahang pagkain sa party nya. Sarap ng pansit...sarap tlaga. :D Bukod sa pagi-enjoy sa pagkain na talagang na-enjoy ko...eh naging singer-singeran din ako nung nyt na yun. Hehe. (adik lang talaga) Sayang wala ak...

I have so many things to give thanks to our God. Who is the mightiest, the awesome God in the whole universe. :) Lately kasi andami ko talaga wino-worry. Yung problem ko sa career, sa pamilya ko at sa sfc. Andami ko iniisip...pati ang paparating na pasko. Inaalala ko. Kung paano ko mabibili ito kasi i have given myself a deadline, i promised this item to my family and so on and so forth. Idagdag pa natin ang ating kanya-kanyang concern sa gastos sa Christmas...handaan, mga kamag-anak na makikipamasko, mga give-aways mga christmas ,parties na pupuntahan. Waaaa ang dami dami talaga. blpht! I forgot to contemplate on things that really matters. Celebration siyempre ng birthday ni Jesus. The birth of our dear savior. Yun lang naman dapat yun eh. Period. Siyempre higit pa rin sa lahat ng mga gastos at worries natin for christmas, we as Christians should prepare ourselves for His coming. We should rethink our ways and prepare kung paano natin gagawin "present" ang sarili natin sa K...

Sa totoo lang...hindi ko pa nararamdaman masyado ang Pasko. Even we have christmas decorations in the haws already... Wala pa rin. Siguro, kapag nakakarinig ng Christmas songs na gusto ko. And the Christmas shopping rush sa mga malls. Yeah...those things na nao-observe ko sa paligid ko...Yun pa lang...Pero bakit ganun...parang may hinahanap pa ako. Andami nangyari this 2008. Sobra. And maybe...yes maybe we wont celebrating Christmas na kumpleto kami. Sad...pero I'm still hoping na maging kumpleto kami. Wala naman masama dun eh :) Oh well I have my Christmas 2008 grown up wishlist...may ganun? hahaha! Sisimulan ko na. 1. My own/family car - sana at the end of the year of first month of next year. 2. Ipod Touch (16GB pero pwede na rin 8GB) - hehehe...thru CC (sana) 3. Wow Magic Sing for my family (bibilhin ko na mamaya cc din) 4. New set of Dining Table for my family 5. CANON/NIKON Digital SLR (akin to :) hahaha! pero baka on my birthday or first quarter next year) Kung maibibigay...

What can I say? Things are all still the same. Been lutang lately. Pero ok na naman ako. Hehe. Gusto ko lang ikwento yung nangyari sa akin kanina umaga. I've been reading a Christian book and I was really moved and touched by God's words. Kapag nata-touch pa naman ako...kahit nga song lang na marinig ko... naiiyak talaga ako. I can't stop it...At feeling ko kahit sinong tao...kapag naramdaman si Lord...will be weak but overwhelmed by the feeling that God really do understand you and love you. Ewan ko ba...my reaction was to cry at that moment. Nararamdaman ko He is speaking the real words I am reading on that book. At kahit para na akong ewan kanina...(papasok pa ako office) tears keep running down on my face. I feel His grace and I felt weak...and thankful. Yeah...I'm very thankful dahil He keeps on giving and offering His love and forgiveness sa akin...non-stop...pero ako...guilty as I am is not perfect...A sinner... I just thank the Lord for that very heartfelt expe...

She has all the right to be Wonder Woman. A new website has revealed an image of Megan Fox in the role of Wonder Woman . The image, at the website www.wonder-who.com , shows the 22-year-old Hollywood babe clad as the Amazon warrior princess. Lucy Lawless was offered the role and actually turned it down. It was also announced in a false rumor that Kate Beckinsale got the part. But according to JoBlo.com , Warner Brothers has issued a denial, insisting that no such movie is planned. It’s caused some debate and curiosity but has generally been dismissed as bogus, though no one knows the purpose of the site. The comic book origin of Wonder Woman is based on ancient Greek stories of the Amazons, who were said to have lived in Themiscyra at the mouth of the river Thermodon - this is today’s river Terme in northern Turkey, near the shore of the Black Sea. I think she would be a better Wonder Woman than Beyonce . - news from Daily Contributor.

I got a very sad news. What a start of a first morning of the week. Hehe. I was not chosen to go to Singapore. But I'm happy most of my colleagues will go. Hindi lang siguro kami nagkaintindihan no? hahaha! Anyways. Life has to move on. Maybe sabi ko nga sa mga status ko. God has better plans. And He wants me to stay here because He wants me to do something first here. And Your will be done Lord. :) Nalulungkot lang talaga ako...Kaya nga di ba sabi ko..VERY SAD NEWS. A part of me is saying that I really want to go and be part of the prestigious project. Siguro for experience na rin. But well... I don't know what went wrong. I will definitely honestly say...I am not OK right now. But I will feel better soon. And it will start RIGHT NOW. Oh well.... God knows what is the best for me. And of course I trust Him my life. It is their lost...not mine...JOKENESS! Haha! Work mode ulet :P P.S. Is this a sign of changing plans?

THE TRUTH HURTS. A MUST READ FOR ALL FILIPINOS 'The Philippines is a nation of starstruck ignoramuses' by Dero Pedero Of Philippine Star Last July 23, I wrote about Nasty (short for Anastacio), a balikbayan from Los Angeles , who, while vacationing in Manila , had nothing to say but negative comments about the Philippines and the Filipinos. The article elicited a deluge of comments from our readers. Though some agreed with his curt observations, most were enraged at the repulsive way he acted and whined. For me, he was the classic epitome of the 'crow perched on a carabao,' thinking and acting nauseatingly superior just because he has become an American citizen, inequitably comparing everything here to how they are in the first world. I was particularly irked by his repulsive 'know it all' attitude and peeved no end by his irritating Waray-American twang. Those who have not read that article may access philstar.com and click archives, then select July 23 and ...

Good things happen for a reason. God did make a way for it to happen. Madami akong natanggap na blessings na gusto ko lang i-enumerate. And super thank you Lord dahil ina-allow nyo na matanggap ko ang mga blessings na ito. 1. Nakatanggap ako ng mga coloring books, at mga libre na pwede pang mareuse. Gagamitin ko itong pangregalo sa mga bata sa pasko. Natutuwa ako dahil nagawan ng paraan ni Sir Jun na maibigay sa akin ito. Salamat Sir Jun. (Hindi pa naman huli ang lahat pwede rin kayo magbigay sa akin. :D) 2. Good news from the boss. Ayus...sana matuloy at magtuluy-tuloy. 3. Sinagot na ang guy besfren ko ng nililigawan nyang girl...Ewan ko ba kung matutuwa ako...Pero happy naman ako for them hehe.....Selos friendship level lang tlaga ito...(Wushu?) Haha! But indeed...i will still count it as a blessing...Parehas ko kasing dear friends ang dalawang yun. Hehe...Siguro mamimiss ko lang ung mga attention ni guy besfren...But that's natural. :) 4. Ayoko sana sabihin pero...iba talaga yun...

Andami ng kaguluhan dito sa opisina. Pero sa kabila noon...tingin ko naman ay nasa equilibrium pa. :) My bosses remain I think to save it and continue on whatever resources we have. Ika nga...let us all move on from here. :) Actually I'm bored. Wala pa projects. So petiks. So research research...Basa basa. That's my job. Nasa Research and Devt team naman kasi ako...Hehe. Ang tagal ko na pala walang updates sa blog. Marami na rin nangyari. Nawalan ako ng isang friend. Hmmn or he forgot that I was his friend din. I don't know. That is the saddest part. Pero, masaya na rin ako. Dahil we did not end that traumatic. Medyo lang. Medyo hindi na lang nya ako kinausap. And from then...wala na. I still prayed na anuman ang pasukin nya...will succeed in God's will. Good luck Ray Ramos. I know pag nag-cross ang paths natin ulit...if ever man...batiin mo naman ako. Hehe...Ako kasi...iha-hi pa rin kita with all the high energy...hehe. Good luck sa work at sa restaurant mo. ;) Hmm...

Nakakainis talaga.....Sigh...Bakit ba kasi walang magawa ang mga hackers na ito kung hindi mambwisit ng buhay... Malaki ang respeto ko sa mga kapatid natin Muslim...Pero why do they need to be like these. One client website is hacked...At heto ang display ng site. HaCKeD By_İntiKaM & EgemeN & bady_boys ------------------------------------------------------------------------ This site hacked for all of the Turks And Muslims We shame on you for your disrespect to our Prophet Hz.Muhammed(s.a.v) Don't forget,we are saying Hz. to your Prophet but you are insulting to our prophet Certainly Jesus is hating to you Allah's curse will be on you Than i am the curse of you on the Cyber World ------------------------------------------------------------------------ ------------------------------------------------------------------------ Türkçe Bu Site Bütün MÜSLÜMAN ve TÜRKLER Adına Hacklenmiştir. Peygamber Eefendimiz HZ. MUHAMMED (s.a.v)'e Yaptığınız Oyunu Kınıyoruz. Unutmayın ...

And yeah...when everything seems to be alright now. Nakakatuwa. May mga nawala...pero may mga dumating. God is indeed the best God. He knows kung nahihirapan ka na masyado. At masyado mo ng pinapatay ang sarili sa pag-iisip at pagtatrabaho.. Siya na mismo ang kukuha sa iyo ng bagay na binigay nya. And I believe sya rin ang magbibigay ng bagay na mas higit pa sa nawala. And indeed....He is really concerned about the details of our lives...He is indeed living and present sa lahat ng situation ng buhay natin. For now I am pressured of getting something for my family before the year ends. Sana makuha ko tlaga sya. At alam ko na wala ng makakapagbigay nun kundi si Lord din. Hopefully in His will, it will all happen. :)

May mga kailangan akong pagdesisyunan lately. Naguguluhan ako. O sige na nga...aaminin ko...may kasalanan ako sa isang tao. Guilty ako ngayon. Eh kasi naman ung mode ng email ng lolo mo...talaga naman makukusensya ka esp yung sa dulong part. Haha! (hindi ko pwedeng i-share sa inyo ang email sorry). Nagawa ko yun unintentionally. Masyado akong pre-occupied ng thoughts ko sa trabaho. Nagkasabay-sabay pa sa mga issues na yan. Maraming issues. Nafed up ako. Na-stress ako. And all of these things came (which he said in the email)...unnoticeably... Ngayon hindi ko alam ang gagawin. Dati kasi buong-buo paniniwala ko...pero parang ngaun... He has his faults too...Pero yeah..it all points to me. And in the end it is my fault. It is all my fault. I was sad this whole day. But I can't be like this. Kailangan kong magdecide. To be fair with him. Lord, please help me. All things are possible with You.

this is a late post. just wanna share these pics from my laptop. kakalat kalat lang....:P miss bros and sisses. Pictures from SFC Christian Life Program - Lord's Day :)

from my spcm1 (comm3) prof, sir navera to my classmate who kept looking at this pretty classmate: "you know, if you really wanted to pass this class, you have to appreciate real beauty... so look here in front rather than your seatmate's low neckline.." prof jimmy williams from cem: "kung iu-uno nyo subject na 'to, mapupunta kayo sa World Bank at CitiBank NY... pag tinake 2 mo nmn, pwede ka ng maging congressman. .." (referrring to now Senator Miguel Zubiri) Prof Dwight Diestro: "I am a liar... if you believe me, you'll go to hell.. " "The aim of policy making is to invoke action! Because action speaks louder than words! You do not just say I love you. You say: If you love me, enter me! " - Dr. Alfonso Pacquing "Class, next week na lang ung result sa exam nyo. I am having a hard time checking it. I will seek first the divine guidance on what to do about it. Class dont worry about your grade. Let me ...

i have been feeling bad all day. I don't know why. But I hate this feeling. Sana mawala na rin ito. Siguro dahil na rin sa period ko kaya ako sobrang masungit at walang pasensya sa mga bagay bagay. Napagdiskitahan ng makulit kong utak ang experience ko last nyt. Well may mga kameet akong tao. Tingin ko kahit medyo mas madalas kaming mag-usap sa business...it's all about business pag kasama ko sila. I thought I meet friends in them. Pero parang dapat babaan ko ang expectation ko sa kanila talaga. Dahil siguro magkakaiba talaga kami ng upbringing. Iba ang values na nakalakhan. So I must understand them...kung hindi parati na lang akong makakaramdam ng ganitong inis. Sa meeting na yun I'm the only girl at first. Pero bago matapos ang gabing yun may dumating na rin kasama kong babae. Sa totoo lang...hindi ko kailanman nagustuhan ang mga taong ungentleman. Yun ang trait naman na sobrang nagugustuhan ko sa mga boys na kakilala ko. At sobrang kinaiinisan naman sa mga lalaking sob...

Inaantok ako...kaya nagbablog ako para magising. Sighness...Marami akong bagay na iniisip ngayon...na actually hindi ko problema....Problema ng mga kaibigan ko. Well...sige na nga...oo na meron din ako isang thought na hindi maalis-alis sa utak ko. 1. My guy bestfriend has finally broke up with his girlfriend. That's sad...esp sa babae. Babae rin ako. Siraulo kasi itong besfren ko...I can't believe he did that. But I don't know. You can't force love...Na-fall out na raw sya. Shucks....ganun ba tlaga yun? Hindi ko alam...Never been into a 5 years relationship?!!! 2. And then a very tiring but fulfilling sunday again with SIBOL kids at GK site with guy bestfren. Na-stress out sya. haha! But I'm glad hearing him say he is still interested mag-volunteer ulit. 3. SFC brod is asking a lot kay guy bestfren. Well...tingin ko nagselos...haha! Assuming kung assuming.. pero wala...oo...80% itong kutob ko. Haha! Or either way...crush nya ang sira ulo kong guy besfren...haha..OM...

Got this from an email. Reposting. Natuwa kasi ako...hahaha! Enjoy. Name it at meron ang U.P. Pati na rin ang source ng lahat ng masasarap na pagkain na makukuhanan ng sakit--fishballs, squidballs, kikiam, isaw, A.D.I.D.A.S (paa ng manok), bilog, tenga, balun-alunan, kwek-kwek, Mang Jimmys, Rodics,Beachhouse, at ang ever famous CASAA - na ngayon ay downloadan na ng mga mp3, at mpeg na bomba. Kung ikukumpara mo sa mga ibang schools, sa U.P. mo makikita ang pinakabulok na systema kapag registration (ooops, may CRS na pala--copuntrzd regtrn) at ang pinaka mahihirap at mahahabang subjects. U.P. System ang tawag dahil maraming campuses all over the Philippines. Nandyan ang U.P.Diliman, ang pinakamalaking school sa Pilipinas . Sa sunken garden maraming milagrong nagyayari tuwing gabi. Sa sobrang laki pa ng campus, pwede kang magtayo ng house and lot at di ka pa masisita ng admin. Sa U.P. Manila, nagkalat ang mga konyito at konyita. Airconditioned pa daw ang classrooms nila! Pampered! Andun ...

Madali lang ito....gusto ko kasi magrecord ng mga naiisip ko at gusto kong i-share sa buong blogosphere... - napanood ko ang Alvin and the Chipmunks...ngayon ko lang napanood ...poor me...ang entertaining ng movie na yun...inuulit ulit ko pa ung Funky town...oh boy oh boy! It is christmas! I love Theodore.. :) - natuloy na yung project from a network. Sighness...Now preparing for extreme coding in flash. - I have the copy of Shutter 2008, Death Note 3, My Sassy Girl (English), Kung Fu Dunk...Cool...Thanks super SEER downloader officemates!!! aylabyaahall! :) - Meeting my college friend Rainier from UPLB later after office. - nagtampo ako kay Kiko last friday...He forgot our coffee date....huhu...ganun naman..hindi naman ako important...Hehe. - Idee officemate/sister/friendship got to their new home in Makati Ave last Sunday. - Household tuloy-tuloy na with Susie, Vanica and Raiza. - GK activities for SIBOL kids was initiated by Karlo...Thank God. Changed person na sya. Cool. Sana tu...

Sigh.... Parating na yung mga araw na magiging super busy na ako. At heto na nga. Ni-eenjoy ko na lang itong mga petiks moments ko. Andami naging blessing ni Lord. Pero sa dami nun...I admit andami ko rin kasalanan. Kaya heto...dapat...gawin ko itong mga "musts" na ito. - must read my Bible again - next book: New:Luke Old: Leviticus (finish it...ang hirap tapusin pramis...puro kasi ito kautusan...kakalurky) - must decide wake up call and follow it strictly - must input something sa sfcinfosystem (upload pictures of members (this week)) - must finish script...hmmm - must plan softdev estore ajax integration - must plan my time every sunday and saturday. - must learn ruby on rails this week - must have time for my King...ibalik and dates at finish a good book you are currently reading :) Aaminin ko na nawala ako talaga this week. Dahil sa dami ng nangyari. Ahahaaay. Note ko lang yung mga events na ito. 1. Dumating na yung pinakahihintay kong papel na pwede nating sabihin na pwe...

To those techy-savy lovers of Apple's iPhone people out there... Here a shocking revelation on your very phenomenal gadget. I don't know if this apple's failure in implementing security measures. But it is true. Apple's iPhone 3G Phone has "security lapses" which Apple "on their part" tries to fix by controlling remotely each iPhones by what they have just announced as a " KILL SWITCH ". This "kill switch" according to Apple is integrated on iPhones to remove remotely malicious software/applications that is not listed provider or partner of Apple. But the question why this fact it is not emphasized to be known by growing number of consumers raises an issue. What are facts on this gadget that we still don't know and it still hidden to us (consumers) by Apple? Also this raises a question on the part of consumers who store delicate data/information their iPhones. Can Apple also see this data? Possibly yes... And the fact that Ap...

Siyempre ang nangyari nung saturday night was really not a plan. But I think it is God's plan for me. Dapat pupunta ako ng Medical City para ipacheck up ang left breast ko. May nakita kasi yung doctor sa SYKES nung nung physical check up ako nun. Maliit pa lang ung mass/lump na ito dati. Pero till nga kahapon, naramdaman ko na lumaki na tlaga ito.Saka medyo nakakailang na. Nararamdaman ko na. Kaya I decided na rin to go to a doctor para magpaconsult. Hayun nga, dumating ako sa breast clinic ng medical city ng almost 4pm. Hay naku...late na ako. Di na ako tinaggap ng nurse dahil strict sila na hanggang 4pm lang talaga sila. Sabi nya hanggang 4pm lang yung doctor. Kaya hayun ina-ask ko rin kung pwede magpset ng appointment. Pero ayaw. Punta na lang daw ako sabi ng nurse. Kaya naisip ko, para di masayang yung pamasahe ko at mga steps na nilakad ko...tinanong ko na lang skeds ng lady doctors pag saturday. At least kahit information...makuha ko. After nun, naisipan ko lang pumunta meg...

I'm starting to love samsung. I have one. I have samsung u700, the sleek phone. But wait there's more. And I think I will love this. Here it is. Samsung OMNIA (SGHi-900)...Wooooooohhhwwwww!!! Click the image to go to the product website. I think this is samsung answers to apples' iPhone. :) I think technology is getting better and better this days. :) I love the technology competition today among these huge cellular phones company. geeeeeh! But...of course....sooner, samsung will release it own 3G version of samsung omnia...let's see. :) I love samsung because it is affordable with the all the functions I need and all its simplicity plus style.

Ang Simula Simula ng ma-surrender ko ang mga thoughts na ito kay God, hindi ko alam kung bakit naging ganito ang pakiramdam....hindi ko na nga iniisip yung mangyayari. Actually hindi ko alam kung ito yung effect ng prayer ko na yun. Or it is just me. wala na akong interes na pagtuunan ng pansin ang paghahanap - paghahanap kay Mr. right. Yun...yun ang tamang term. This idea is boggling in my mind for days now. Naisip ko kasi kung maghahanap ako...I end up not finding the right one. I end up insisting that this man (at present) is the right one. Akala ko sya na. Katulad ng experience ko na lang kay Kolokoy (di tunay na pangalan..haha!). I know from the very start that He is not the one. Maybe it is God saying to me that very night...."Hindi sya yun Karen"....I heard that. God has spoke to me. Imagine. Pero ang makulit kong utak, naging submissive naman...pero after that, balik na naman ulit. I cried that night. I remember. At napakanta talaga ako with all the emotions ng "...