What's the big deal again regarding on this realization? Ewan....Pero di ba? Ano naman ang karapatan kong magmaganda at naging pihikan pa ako ng lagay na ito? Ha?! Haaaaaaa? Kaya hindi ko rin matanggap yung word na pihikan because it doesn't rightfully applies to me. Hindi talaga eh.
Hindi naman ako kagandahan. Tama lang. At hindi ako matalino. Ok lang.
I have just been into sad experiences lang. I personally experienced most of them and heard it from stories' friends. These experiences piled up and made me a person that I am now. Plus plus pa yung golden lecture ng mama at papa ko. Plus plus ung wisdom that was shared by Christian friends in the communities I have been to since college and ngayon...
I don't know if I'm afraid to make mistakes. I can't say that dahil nagtry din ako. Nagkamali din. Nagmukha rin tanga. Life is not perfect for me. I have also been in the dark ages of my life (man hater days ko nung college) baka dun ko nga nakuha ito. Hehe. Theory lang.
So bakit nga ulit PIHIKAN?
You see when you aged (Yes I'm blessed 27 years old), you gain wisdom from the years of experiences and experiences of others na rin. This is the age for me that lessons are learned and applied. Pero siyempre hindi naman bawal ang magcommit ng mistakes from time to time. Tingin ko, yung word na PIHIKAN applies to me dahil I constantly and unconsciously choose people whom I want get near to...to know more well in another level. This criteria doesn't apply to friends. Wala akong criteria dun. Lahat pwede...Kahit sino...kahit ano pa sya....:)
But I'm afraid that no one dares to get to know me more.... you know on that another level that I want. Hindi ko alam. Life is unfair. Or baka may signal din akong sini-send sa kanila kaya sila natatakot. (Monster ba ako? Hehe) This is maybe true.
But on my innocent side of things, I just thought that no one dared. No one tried. (And yes this is sadness.) Because I never meant to make them feel or think that way.
So in short...possible na wala lang talaga. May nagtry pero di nagseryoso. Or they were frightened and no one dared na. Period.
Okay.
Conclusion:
I therefore say na pihikan ako.
- Yes dahil this was the character I am shaped to based from my past experiences and lesson learned from them.
- Yes dahil hindi naman ako nagmamadali.
- Yes dahil wala naman masama dun kung ang pagiging choosy ang magiging isa sa mga crossover decisions ng buhay ko.
Corrections:
- Hindi ako over na pihikan. Dahil wala akong karapatan. Hindi ako kagandahan. (Tama lang. Naman. Haha.)
- Kung yun man ang perception sa akin ng tao dapat ko itong baguhin or bawasan sa paraan nararamdaman at nakikita nila.
- Tingin ko naman, sa sarili kong opinyon, hindi naman talaga ako pihikan. Hindi pa lang talaga dumarating yung makakatapat ko. Hehe. See blog article here.
I rest my case.
Hindi naman ako kagandahan. Tama lang. At hindi ako matalino. Ok lang.
I have just been into sad experiences lang. I personally experienced most of them and heard it from stories' friends. These experiences piled up and made me a person that I am now. Plus plus pa yung golden lecture ng mama at papa ko. Plus plus ung wisdom that was shared by Christian friends in the communities I have been to since college and ngayon...
I don't know if I'm afraid to make mistakes. I can't say that dahil nagtry din ako. Nagkamali din. Nagmukha rin tanga. Life is not perfect for me. I have also been in the dark ages of my life (man hater days ko nung college) baka dun ko nga nakuha ito. Hehe. Theory lang.
So bakit nga ulit PIHIKAN?
You see when you aged (Yes I'm blessed 27 years old), you gain wisdom from the years of experiences and experiences of others na rin. This is the age for me that lessons are learned and applied. Pero siyempre hindi naman bawal ang magcommit ng mistakes from time to time. Tingin ko, yung word na PIHIKAN applies to me dahil I constantly and unconsciously choose people whom I want get near to...to know more well in another level. This criteria doesn't apply to friends. Wala akong criteria dun. Lahat pwede...Kahit sino...kahit ano pa sya....:)
But I'm afraid that no one dares to get to know me more.... you know on that another level that I want. Hindi ko alam. Life is unfair. Or baka may signal din akong sini-send sa kanila kaya sila natatakot. (Monster ba ako? Hehe) This is maybe true.
But on my innocent side of things, I just thought that no one dared. No one tried. (And yes this is sadness.) Because I never meant to make them feel or think that way.
So in short...possible na wala lang talaga. May nagtry pero di nagseryoso. Or they were frightened and no one dared na. Period.
Okay.
Conclusion:
I therefore say na pihikan ako.
- Yes dahil this was the character I am shaped to based from my past experiences and lesson learned from them.
- Yes dahil hindi naman ako nagmamadali.
- Yes dahil wala naman masama dun kung ang pagiging choosy ang magiging isa sa mga crossover decisions ng buhay ko.
Corrections:
- Hindi ako over na pihikan. Dahil wala akong karapatan. Hindi ako kagandahan. (Tama lang. Naman. Haha.)
- Kung yun man ang perception sa akin ng tao dapat ko itong baguhin or bawasan sa paraan nararamdaman at nakikita nila.
- Tingin ko naman, sa sarili kong opinyon, hindi naman talaga ako pihikan. Hindi pa lang talaga dumarating yung makakatapat ko. Hehe. See blog article here.
I rest my case.
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