Kangel's Confessions

Madaming gumugulo sa utak ko ngayon. Hindi ko alam kung dapat kong sabihin. Basta magta-type lang ang kamay ko. Mamaya ko na i-edit ito. Bahala na. 1. Trabaho - Yung "reorg" na nasabi sa akin ng isa kong officemate. Pambihira. Nakakapraning. Parang puzzle na gusto kong hanapan ng sagot. Yoko naaaa. Lord kayo na bahala. Hindi ko alam ang sagot eh :P 2. Spiritual - Well Lenten season does really it's purpose. Alam ko na kailangan bumawi kay Lord. Sobrang dami ko ng hindi ginawa na dapat ay ginawa ko noon pa. Well isusulat ko na lang yung mga gusto kong bawiin. Bawiin meaning bibigyan ko ito ng oras. Ita-tag as HIGH PRIORITY dahil si Lord ang involve dyan. Ito na yung oras na yun. Kailangan kong solusyunan ito. Hindi forever iintindihin ako ni Lord. I know I need to decide for myself. Act on my decision. THIS IS IT. Andami ko ng pinalagpas na oras...ayoko na magpalagpas pa ng oras. Life is short. Kailangan ko talaga bumawi. PERIOD. Babawi ako sa mga sumusunod: - Quiet ti

"Maybe you're just scared, because for once in your life someone actually wants to be with you." - From the movie A Walk to Remember love is always patient and kind; it is never jealous. love is never boastful or conceited; it is never rude or selfish, it does not take offense, and is not resentful. love takes no pleasure in other people’s sins, but delights in the truth. it is always ready to excuse to trust, to hope and to endure whatever comes. Wala naaa. Nakakaiyak na talaga ito. Love is so simply ideally indulging because of these words from the Bible. This is love as the Lord describes it to be. It's our decision to believe even though the world fails to manifest it... OK.NAKAKARELATE.AKO. Fine! hahaha. :) I wish there is such kind of love...I wish...

Ok I can't tweet but I can blog. Sigh! :) (Ang hirap pala talaga ng pinasok...well 2 days left to go!!! I can shout to the world again. I soooooo miss twitter... Confirmed: I am certified twitter addict) I decided to fast tweeting. I decided this is the activity that really consumes my time and one of activities I am addicted to. I just decided to take further step on disciplining myself. At sa sobrang pagka-addict. Sinulat ko na lang ang mga dapat tweets ko sa blog. Haay. Go! - Gutom na ako. Offering today's breakfast in replacement of my abstinence dapat last night. - Fun last night with a dear long lost "pastor" friend of mine. We were reconnected again. Thanks for being generous. I already pray to God to bring back the blessings 10 times. Well I think that's the rule of karma anyway. I miss his super lakas na laughter. Peace hehe. :) Basta. I missed you pala. And yes sa uulitin. ;) Stay humble and gwapo... Uuuy! Go go go for healthy life. Two years would be l

Just had chismaks with girlfriend Rom last night. Some points were given light to me once again. 1. That we really have a freedom to choose - On choosing the life we want. But do you know what's amazing? Even if we keep on choosing the bad ones, God will turn or make that choice into good. Kahit anu pa yan. Kahit noon pa yan nangyari. Wala lang. ganun lang talaga tayo ka-love ni Lord. :) It is just so sad to hurt God sometimes on choosing the other way around. 2. God knows his sheep. When we get lost and scream to the world how hurt we are, God knows our pain and He lifts us up. He knows exactly who we are because of our hearts. He knows what's in it, whose in it and what garbage we kept inside. 3. Forgiveness is a decision. The moment we decide to forgive, everything - our mind, heart follows. Forgiveness gives you freedom and inner peace. 4. Love will come in the most unexpected way - mysteriously you can never imagined. It may destroy you, build you, and it may be the best

Ok I'll start this monday morning with sharing something what happened last week. I finally manage to attend an assembly sa SFC. I saw him finally at siyempre kinapa ko ang sarili ko kung ok na ako. Nung una siyempre hindi ko sya matingnan. Para akong pasyente na naoperahan sa mata. Ayoko idilat ang mata ko dahil natatakot ako sa malalaman ko. Kung tagumpay ba ang operasyon o hindi. I'm so afraid, na baka ganun pa rin ang pakiramdam ko sa kanya. I'm afraid I would realize I have never moved on...na bulag pa rin ako. The grace of God helped me that night. He guided me. Nakita ko na sya by then. Pero di ko pa rin sya nilapitan. He seem not to change after months of not seeing him. Childish pa rin ang brod, ex-prospect ko. :) Hindi ko rin alam pero di ko na rin siya nilapitan. Pero I planned to. Wala na naman kaso kung sino ang mauna. If I will be returning back to SFC, kailangan kong maayos ang relationship ko sa kanya. After all we're brother and sisters in Christ. We be