Kangel's Confessions

After that crying night, ito na yung pangalawang araw na hindi ako hinahayaan ng Diyos na mag-isa. :) Thank God for friends.

Actually I am not inspired to write. But everything happens for a reason so I clicked and read on my blogpost again and check some articles I wrote. See people's comments on it. And I smiled when I learn that they learn on what I have shared. Pero ngayon naghahanap naman ako ng inspirasyon. Tingin ko naubos na ang inspirasyon ko. I've been stalled with my current state. What's been happening to me lately? Jotting it down some things on my head. See my list. (These are the things I am missing out and I am planning to make up) 1. SFC - Been inactive in SFC. For a long time now. I miss my sisses in Sunvalley. I miss the fellowship, late night meetings and just that amazingly spiritual feeling when I'm in with my SFC Sunvalley family. I miss our music ministry. I miss praising together with the people I know would stay the way I know them for the rest of my life. I miss being with a bunch of people who I know would understand my faith. I felt I stopped growing. It is just...

Faith talks I've been doing some cleaning up lately. I'm trying to focus myself on some important goals. LOVELIFE not . Nanawa na ako mag-focus sa area na ito. Sabi nga ni Dr. Love dun sa sharing nya sa lector meeting namin, kung will na ng Diyos ang isang bagay na mangyari, kahit na anong pigil ko na hindi ito mangyari, MANGYAYARI sya. Pero mukhang kahit anong will ko sa area na ito na magkaroon eh mukhang hindi pa kalooban ng Diyos. The real challenge sabi nga ni Dr. Love, ay tanggapin ang will na ito ng Diyos para sa buhay mo. Ang naturalesa kasi ng tao eh ay i-resist ito. Paano mo nga ba naman tatanggapin ang isang bagay na hindi mo gusto (pa)? Maybe love is not yet destined to visit me yet. Mararamdaman ko naman yun kapag andyan na. Kung ano and andyan... (ano talaga...bagay ba ito? haha!) I will appreciate. Darating din yan sa oras na baka di ko pa inaasahan. Korea is <3 Sinasabi nila na kapag parati mong iniisip ang isang bagay at nag-stay ito sa thoughts mo ng matag...

Yuck... minimalist daw? hahahah! I change template. Napapanahon na. Nag-explore ako ng mga useful widgets ni blogger, nag-iba ng layout at kung anu-ano na lang ang sinubok ko para mabuhay ang simpleing minimalistic na theme na ito. Haha! Well, I also remove spammy comments. And I came across with an advise with Anonymous person. He/She is so nice. Nag-blog sya sa sarili kong blog. Lol. Sharing this to you all guys. -> http://kangelsconfessions.blogspot.com/2009/01/guys-please-langpost-bday-celebration.html?showComment=1233287640000#c2606629724836045042 Get out. Being in the right place at the right time will surely help a lot. As Cano puts it, "don't expect prince charming to fall on your lap. Know more about him. Consult the authority. And when I say more, go beyond knowing which org he/she belongs. Get more personal details. His/her waistline perhaps? =p Be his friend. "Most relationships bloom from friendship." Learn to decode his/her body language. Listen w...

Alam mo ung pakiramdam na halos lahat nagkakadyowa - nagkakaboyfriend at nagkakagirlfriend na. Yung mga mga kaibigan mo pa...mga kakilala....kahit nga yung hindi....yung mga matagal ng naghintay, yung mga nakailan palit na...eh meron ulit bago... Ang tanong....anong pakiramdam? Pakshet. Nakakainis...nakakalungkot...at kahit ayoko...may konti akong awang nararamdaman sa sarili ko. Sabi ko after college... (well honestly kahit nung college) ay papayagan ko na ang sarili ko na magkaroon boyfriend. Pero ganun yata talga. Mukang ayaw pa ng Diyos. (Sana naman gusto nya talaga akong magkaroon) Gusto ko lang sabihin na nakakalungkot ng sobra. Ayokong magkumpara pero hindi ko maiwasan minsan. :( Masaya naman ako ngayon. Pero kapag meron talga akong nakikitang kakilala na masaya na ngayon dahil ayun, natupad na ung wish nila to be with someone they love....hindi ko maiwasan ang malungkot. Alam mo yung pakiramdam ng may mabigat na maso yata ang nakadagan sa heart. Alam mo un ang bigat huminga.....

I always think that being single is the most sad and most frightening feeling of a woman. But I realized that: Being single is being happy in spite of the absence of that special someone. Being single is being stronger in spite of the world showing you that you are alone and you have no one to depend to. Being single is being faithful when everything falls down, reaping your visions, decreasing your hope and destroying your beliefs on love. You as a single woman alone makes God favored you more, blessed you more and romance you more. Having single life is where you open your hands to best of what the world and your loving God can offer. It's how you receive it with open mind and open heart. Fly like you never did before. Till then....

I've been thinking a lot. And I would be pouring out some of them tonight. This time...ipo-post ko na. Gee :D I was in Zambales with Marketing peeps. Originally team building ito ng Marketing Design. Honored ako, I was invited. I enjoyed. Na-relax ako. After all, I need a break from stress. :) Many thanks to Marketing :) But that never stopped me of thinking of my events in the past. Sa totoo lang, ayoko na talaga isipin. I'm not sure why I am keep revisiting these stories of happiness, heartbreaks and realizations. I don't know if I really want to share these. After all, it's not a happy ending. Pero heto na lang.... - Gusto ko sabihin na it is really not fair. (I know....right?) Gusto ko magalit pero di ko magawa. I just understand. I wanna shout to the world na he should not treat me that way. It is just not fair. It breaks my heart until now. Siguro yun ang totoo. Basta na lang sya nawala, Naiwan ako. Sinong hanging? Sinong tao ang hindi alam kung ano ang tamang da...